I’m Back

Dear Diary,

I’m sure you guys noticed that I took a month or so away from blogging a bit. I did some self reflection.. some may know that I am turning 20 in less than a month and I am at the point of my life when I need to figure out who I am and what I want to do with my life.

I am scared.

Scared of what? Myself.. How?

Comparing myself to others and doubting my talents and creative skills.

Most of the time when I finish my art or design, I never think it is enough. I don’t push mysef up but I push myself down and it has been an ongoing struggle for a long time now. There are so many ideas I wish to do..but I do not allow myself to follow through with them becuase of my own barrier I created just from comparing myself to others and putting myself down.

But I can’t think like this anymore, I can’t stop myself from doing something that I know is going to be great. I am great, I am amazing, and I am the best at my craft.

I officially do not care what people think is wrong about what I am doing, because I am doing it for me. And that is the mindset I need to keep and will do my best to keep in my brain 24/7. I don’t want to be scared anymore, so I will slay my fears and go for it.

I am back and better than my past self starting today. I will continue to count my blessings and push myself to be the best version and only version of myself..

Until we meet again,

Ashadah Austin♥


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